Waaaah Waaaah...

Sooooo...didn't exactly win either category (congrats to Shira Lazar and What's Trending), but the IAWTV nominations and awards ceremony were more than enough to make me proud and motivate me to keep it pushin' in 2013.  I'm pretty hard on myself sometimes and while I always expect the best of myself (and that is ok), last night was a reminder that there is much work to be done (and that is also ok).  I took my first hosting class almost one year ago to the day of the awards show last night...so I shouldn't hang my head too low.  There were so many insanely talented and creative people there last night that I can't wait to get back to LA to start working on some new projects of my own!  I know I have the potential to do some really cool stuff in this industry and as long as I work hard every day and continue to surround myself with the right people...my day will come, but dammit it sure would've been cool to walk on that stage!  Lol.

I feel like life is a serious of awakenings and last night definitely awakened something inside me.  A desire to be better and to do more and oddly enough, I'm pretty sure it awakened Momma Kath and my little sis too.  I'm serious...I think it actually, literally awakened them because I'm pretty sure they fell asleep a couple times during the show.  Let's be honest, the internet is great but we're old and had no idea who most of the nominees even were!  The important thing is that they were wide awake and screaming like maniacs at a rock concert every time my name was announced and face was shown...they made me proud!  They're certain the whole thing was rigged and that I was robbed.  I could've been up against Ryan Seacrest and Tom Bergeron and I'm pretty sure they would've still expected me to win...and that's why I love them!

I know in my heart that some day I will be nominated right alongside my role models and know that my family isn't just appeasing me when they say they believe the same, they actually do believe it too.  I just hope they're not nodding off when I tearfully give my acceptance speech for my first Emmy win some day, but then again nothing my family does ever surprises me and rarely upsets me for more than a moment, because under it all they love me unconditionally and to be honest...they crack me the F*CK up!  So, from where I'm sitting (and I am actually sitting right now)...I'm already a winner!

My lovely co-host Kristyn Burtt & I on the red carpet!